#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

#NP #13thFL #13thPerformingArt

#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

"you’ve changed"

these two words make me cringe. especially if you’ve known me long enough to where some change SHOULD have taken place. I’m aware that some people hold on to who they were as a teenager and some stay stuck in their 20’s. people who aren’t resistant to growth or dead set on living in the past, will evolve.

I graduated from high school 17 years ago. I moved to Atlanta 14 years ago. since then, I’ve helped other people start businesses, stopped partying 6 days a week and drinking/doing recreational drugs like it was going out of style, watched both of my parents survive cancer, had two grandparents die a month apart from one another while another one fought for her life, had a child (who’s turning 5 years old in 2 months), got married, got separated, started a business of my own, mended some old relationships, let a few sail off into whatever dead zone they reside in now, and allowed extremely meaningful bonds to be created with some dope ass people (not necessarily in the order it was written. some stuff happened simultaneously and that’s just the stuff I felt like “sharing”)

I say all that to say, if life doesn’t change you from the 17 and 21 year old person you were, your journey might be stuck on Groundhog Day. so is the issue that other people have changed or that you might need to gain some maturity? 17 years from today, when I’m 51 years old, I can promise everyone that knows me, I won’t be who I was at 34 years of age. embrace that knowledge or step aside and go find your fellow Groundhog Day associates.

the problem isn’t always that others have changed. maybe it’s that you haven’t.
“I don’t broadcast every high & I don’t hide every low. I’m trying to live. I’m not trying to convince the world I have life.”
— (via kees-me)

ditto.

(via kees-me)

"Books aren’t going to save you"

heard this several times since I was a kid. most of the time it came from people who didn’t read or read as much as I did. a few times it came from some who thought it silly to have tons of books. to be honest, I look at the books I’ve retained over the years and it doesn’t seem like I’ve saved enough.

for some people, they think that the only books we learn from are those taught in school, self-help publications, and anything non-fiction. even had someone express that you couldn’t possibly learn anything from fictional books because all of the information is imaginative. books are like people though, in the sense that there’s something to be learned from everything/everyone.

a lot of the things I’ve done in life that seemed daring or courageous, I’ve read about first. when I was a kid and I wanted to combat my insecurities, I read fictional books of people with the same issues to see how they got over their hurdles. some of the greatest ideas I’ve had to create, started out with me reading a book first. racism, prejudice, discrimination, I knew how to label it when it happened to me because I read about it happening to others, too. reading has always been a life experience for me, not just a bunch of words on blank paper.

there are so many things that I’ve read from fiction, nonfiction, biographies, self-help, reference materials, psychological journals, scripts, etc. that I was never taught…and I’ll continue to read even more. as long as I have eyes to see, I’ll always learn and apply where/if necessary.

so I’ll always have a different perspective about books saving lives. maybe if some people had a more diverse selection of reading material, they’d see how this is possible.

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#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

the human body is SO amazing. so I’ve had a migraine for 2 days now and had no idea why. my body has taken it upon itself to sync up with two of my friends who are experiencing their time of the month. I only got these terrible headaches when I used to have a cycle. might not bleed like a murdered goat but thanks to my friends, my head feels like it’s splitting wide open… and I been wanting to do nothing but cry under my covers all week. thanks ladies. thanks.

#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt

#NP #13thFl #13thPerformingArt