Words can’t hold back human curiosity.
President #BarackObama …after having 43 presidents and 219 years passing, the USA elected the first Black/African-American into office, not once but twice. He started his second term in 2012.
Truly a great moment in history.
The writer in me also smiles knowing that he wanted to be a writer before his career in politics began.
Honorable mention: #MichelleObama first Black/African-American first lady in the White House.
life on my terms
always had this thing for doing/reading/observing/living stuff that others might shy away from. basic things that everyone is doing or has done, can be relayed to others effortlessly. something that not very many people are familiar with? what better way to find out what it’s like than to experience it?
sure, there are things I won’t do but it has more to do with the risk factor than anything else. the risk factor was high when I didn’t have a child and a husband. I think a lot longer about doing some stuff now because it directly affects two people who rely on me. guess it can be said that I now rely on them to keep me alive, to an extent.
which leads me to my current station in life. I believed this before but whenever I was stare at my daughter, time begins to look different. she’s here because I needed something to slow me down from making some bad decisions I probably wouldn’t have survived. I think about her before I do just about anything. it depressed me for a good 3 years because of the internal battle. for 30 years, I had no one physically relying on me to make good decisions for them. my brain didn’t shift into mommy mode right away.
I’ve always been more of a protector of those who protect me. sure, there have been times where I felt like I was in a relationship to protect someone but this is different. she won’t be able to protect herself for a while and even when that time comes, she’ll still look to me as a shield because I’m the first guardian she’s ever had.
I was enjoying life as one running, random episode of shit happening to me. even though it had its consequences here and there, I was having fun. my kid makes me want to wake up and CAUSE life to happen. it’s different, harder, requires more strategy and structure, and not as fun. it’s forcing me to grow up in areas I never even paid attention to.
there are times when I wonder where I’d be right now if she’d have never come along or I decided a kid at that time wasn’t for me. then I remember what I’m doing right now is so aligned with my greater purpose that THIS is where I’m supposed to be and what I’m supposed to be doing. I’m supposed to be everything I currently am. a writer, mother, wife and I’m supposed to do it exactly how I’ve always done things…on my own terms.
The Bug is a Pharrell Stan
- Bug: IS THAT DAHSPICKLE ME? (she can't say 'despicable')
- Me: *laughs* his name is Pharrell.
- Bug: for real?
- Me: no, fah rell.
- Bug: oh. Pharell. I like him, mom.
- Me: I do too.
- Bug: *smiles a creep smile* he's so cute.
- Me: yes, he's nice looking.
- Bug: I love him, mom.
- Me: get out. goodbye.
#SpikeLee director/producer/writer/actor that built 40 Acres and a Mule Film works and gave us iconic films like #DoTheRightThing #SchoolDaze, #MalcolmX, and a plethora of other films that make us feel the human condition as if we were living the experience portrayed on the screen.
He is also part of the group of people I admire, learn from, and respect when it comes to writing and filmmaking. He has unpopular opinions that spring from the truth. He believes in shedding light on things people would sooner sweep under the rug. Over the years, he’s constantly proved that you can speak your mind loud enough to be heard and STILL be successful…on an independent AND mainstream level.
#OriginalSin 8-part series…someone killed The Watcher & ganked his eye; two of these heroes are suspects. can’t wait to see who did it!
#BlackWidow #Spiderman #IronMan #Hulk #CaptainAmerica is that #Hawkeye? and #Thor ….each cover was drawn by a different #ARTIST great concept…they are as follows:
#SteveMcNiven #AgustinAlessio #StephanieHans #ButchGuice #MarcoChecchetto #PaulRenaud #MikeMcKone #JungSikAkn #MARVEL
You wanted to fuckin’ walk around these roaches
These niggas is roaches
These niggas is mere motherfuckin’ mortals
I’m tryna push you to supreme being
You don’t wanna motherfuckin’
You don’t wanna embrace your destiny
You wanna get by
You don’t wanna go into the motherfuckin’ dark
Where it’s lonely
You can’t handle the motherfuckin’, the pain
Of the motherfuckin’ not knowin’ when the shit is gonna stop
You fuckin’ wanna walk around with these niggas
What the fuck is their culture
Where the fuck is their souls at
What defines you
These niggas with these fucking silly looks on their faces
You wanna walk around with them or you wanna walk with God, nigga
Make up your got damn mind
Fuck you wanna talk about
Fuckin’ jewelries and Bentley’s and Hublot’s
And fuckin’ art that niggas ain’t got on their fuckin’ walls
And fuckin’ mansions niggas ain’t got
Niggas can’t even pay the IRS, let alone their fuckin’ staff, nigga
You gotta tell the truth, man
The truth’ll set you free, son
The truth will set you free
(from “Nobody” by Rick Ross)
yes, there is a gratuitous amount of “choice” language but it’s one of the greatest rants Diddy has had on a record…and I love it.
For Every Negative, Produce Two Positives - My Personal Movement
It’s obvious that we as a society see the importance in not being a Debbie Downer and Gloomy Gus. There’s a lot of good movements [in theory] going on around the world and none of them are new, per se. As a human, no matter how much we want to be on some “fuck everything”, we still have some kind of issue when things or people go all bad. No matter how old we live to be, disappointment never becomes comfortable.
So we have the:
Love Movement - love everything and everyone, no matter how we’re treated.
Positive Movement - be positive ALL the time. never let an ounce of negativity permeate our being or we’re part of the problem, not the solution.
Hustle Movement - don’t sleep. eat less. always be goal oriented. outwork everybody we know. produce. produce. produce. any moment spent not creating something worth bragging about is time wasted .
Money/Ambition Movement - if it don’t make dollars it don’t make sense. if someone isn’t striving to shoot beyond the stars, don’t fool with them. they aren’t about anything worth listening to.
We claim to believe balance is necessary yet leave no room to be well-rounded. Our society, from a general perspective, is very polarized. Either we are something or we aren’t, as if we aren’t biologically engineered to encompass more than one spectrum of being. We leave ourselves and others no room to be the humans we actually are.
I don’t desire to pigeonhole myself in some unrealistic grouping that doesn’t allow for growth in every direction. Our bodies and brains are more treelike than we even care to admit. We can firmly plant ourselves wherever we want but branch out openly and on a deeper level in any direction we choose as long as we’re in an environment that allows for that kind of growth.
Life is happening with every breath we take. Reality isn’t always positive, money isn’t always flowing, our bodies shut down from being tired (which isn’t a sin against ourselves; we’re supposed to rest and sleep. we’re humans, remember?). We have to encourage ourselves to keep pushing forward with our goals, we lose motivation, some days we need to be inspired/inspire ourselves, and another reality that’s hard to face sometimes is that love IS a fluid concept. Everyone wasn’t raised the same, nor do we all speak the same love language. As good as it sounds to be on our hippy shit with some free love, there isn’t a human being alive that loves EVERYONE the way the other person desires to be loved. We’re humans and we definitely err on all sides of perceived notions of right and wrong.
The best we can do is admit we aren’t perfect, not make excuses for when we are fucking up, and produce more positive moments in life than negative. I don’t expect everyone to agree that THIS is how life should be for the entire world and I know I’ll be met with resistance quite often. We do what we feel is best for ourselves. THIS IS WHAT’S BEST FOR ME to operate at my greatest level of potential. For every negative NORMAL event/emotion in my life, I’m making it my business to be responsible for my energy and actions producing twice as many positive events/emotions. In order to maintain this, I cannot be around anything/anyone that would hinder my forward progression.
There’s no need to EVER blame someone else for why we do what we do. Sure, there will always be contributing factors but the final decision to do anything is always ours, unless we’re being physically forced with no way to fight back. Any time we say someone “made us” feel a certain way or do something, we’re giving them 100% control over our thoughts, feelings, and actions. If we honestly believe others make us behave the way we do, we might as well call ourselves puppets.
We all have a right to build the environment we want to be engrossed in. There is no need for anyone close to be perfect. As long as we’re not afraid of being accountable for our actions/energy as we grow, we’ll naturally thrive together. None of us are required to control anyone but ourselves.
So, until some higher power alerts me that I can be more than a human being, that is all I desire to be. I’ll BE the best I CAN be, excuse free.
Nothing more, nothing less.